This is my first post on this blog so for those of you who don't know me I shall tell you a little about myself. My name is Donna although most people call me Dee. I am 31 years old and married with two wonderful boys; Mason who turned 5 last month and Izaak who will be 1 next month.
My weight has been an issue pretty much my whole life since I was in high school. A bout of glandular fever (mono) at the age of 15 was the point when I went from being a chubby teen to actually being overweight. In the past I have managed to lose weight and be a "normal" size for a good 4 years before the weight crept back on. Without sounding like I blame my husband for my weight gain, I do believe that it was when I moved in with him and changed my eating habits and lifestyle that my problem started over again.
When I fell pregnant with our first child I gained over 5 stone (70 lbs) and struggled to lose much of that weight afterwards. I was still a good 4 stone heavier than I wanted to be when I got pregnant with our second child, luckily I only gained 18lbs with him but I find myself today still about 10lbs over the weight I was when I got pregnant second time around.
I've reached a point in my life now where I'm starting to look back at the things I wanted to do with my life; my hopes, my dreams and my aspirations. I'm an avid singer, I sung in bands and duos and even went solo for as long as I have been out of school. I stopped doing that when I moved away to live with my husband. Since then my confidence has waned, I've suffered with depression and more recently I've been battling crippling anxiety. All of these negative things have happened alongside my weight creeping back up. Some might say it's purely coincidence, but I know they're linked. I firmly believe that weight loss is hindered by an unhealthy mind; almost like your subconscious keeps a hold on the extra weight as some kind of physical security blanket to block out emotional pain. If that makes no sense then I apologise, it sounded better in my own head!
So today I start a new chapter. No longer am I going to allow my problems (weight related or head related) to hinder my life plan! I'm sick of feeling like I'm not good enough to achieve the things I want or that I don't deserve to be happy. I'm sick of being on self destruct the whole time! I know none of this is going to be easy, but I'm hoping that by documenting my journey I can keep tabs on what works and what I'm doing wrong.
More to follow in due course..... Watch this space!
